Rantings of a BloggingBean v2: This is...

Monday, May 25, 2009

This is...

On a Side Note...
I just pulled off the stunt of the year. I'm amazed as well.

I struggled to stay awake throughout the dialog by the Chief of Defence Force, which lasted about 2 hours. But ultimately it was the inspiring and intellectual interaction that kept me vigil. It was extremely enriching and it definitely is a once in a lifetime opportunity to be able to talk to him on such a personal level.

Throughout the dialog, his words kept me thinking 'bout myself, and who I am. Everyone needs to have a sense of identity. Some haven't found theirs, while some create falsettos under influence or admiration. My very existence is a reminder to my identity. I own it, and no one else. I may bend under pressure, but that doesn't take me away from who I am.

Quoted from Felicia's blog
"The sense of lost was hard to talk about. What could I have lost when I never had anything to begin with? I had myself to begin with, and that is what I lost."

How aptly put. For all it's worth, every moment will be remembered for what it is. Perhaps the only regret that I have is realising too late. I never believed in 'it's too late', but then indeed sometimes it's really about the timing.

LG Desmond Kwek mentioned many other things, obviously regarding National Service, but most of what he said applies in life too. The exchange brought forth many ideas and suggestions by the participants. And though some were indeed good, they had their shortcomings and LG Desmond is extremely charismatic and eloquent to be able to put them down subtly and explain the logic without just simply dismissing them.

He mentioned about undesirable situations occurring, and stressed that it is not about 'what if', but 'when' it happens. Now I see that certain chain reactions are imminent and trying to put it off wouldn't do any good. The ultimate solution is to tackle the root of the problem. And in my case, the problem was, me. I see it, and perhaps now I am beyond it.

People often make decisions emotionally instead of rationally. There's no right or wrong about it, depending on whether you are the hopeless romantic, or the skeptical logician. Most of the time I let my mind make the decisions, and on occasional exceptions, my heart has led me to tears of joy and sadness too. Things that make you happy, make you sad.

I am not defined by what I am not, but I am defined by my actions. Though I've often regarded myself as a manager instead of a leader, I am without a doubt a leader of my own life. Thus what I do defines who I am. It's is never about 'what my name is', or 'who I am', but more of 'what I am'.

This is, me.

Quote of the day

Don't cry because it ended.

Smile because it happened =)

Labels: Musings